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Monday, January 29, 2007

A Girl Wants to Know

More observations from the blogosphere and life.

I was thinking about my blogging experience lately especially after the last post. Dave said it was “hard core”. Translation – I can’t believe you wrote about that in a public forum. To which I dispassionately replied, “I don’t care.”

“I know,” he said knowing it as a losing battle, worrying how much of my sorry journal crazy self would be bursting out onto the public scene.

“It was a good post,” he relented and then gave me a hug and said he was sorry I was feeling bad. It was one of those moments in my relationship with him when I revel in the fact that I married the right guy.

But it got me thinking about my blog. When I first starting writing it I told no one. It was me and cyberspace. I think it really was me and me alone. Then I told Dave and he read it all and liked it – well most of it. He made me delete other bits, which I am sworn to secrecy about. Ryn Tales – racy black hole of the blogosphere… (It will be funny to see what Google searches turn up because of that last sentence.) Sigh.

But I digress. Then I told a select group of friends and family. In the first posts I was earnest. After I told everyone, I had a crowd and it was fun. It was fun to see if I could make my readers laugh. It was like a honeymoon period and that lasted all the way until these late winter months and some of the more serious issues started to creep into my book of days.

Then I got to thinking about my relationship with Dave and I asked him,

“Am I still funny?”

“Oh, you’re funny.”

“I don’t mean quirky, I mean comedic.”

“Yeah, you’re still funny. Our lives are just in a different context now.”

“Yeah, it’s much easier to be funny working in a dot com living in Socal where it’s 76 degrees and sunny every day. Way easier.”

“Yeah. You still ask a lot of strange questions.”

“Let’s stick to the topic of me being funny. A girl wants to know.”

So that is the way of it? Am I leaving the honeymoon phase with my blog? Am I at a turning point? Is it go deeper or get out? Hmmmm. Will have to think about that one for a bit. Does all of this mean I am in some sort of weird marriage with my blog? Are Blog and Blogger so intertwined? Or is it just the cold sub arctic temperatures and the long scary month we have had?

Will I ever get my funny back? A girl wants to know.