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Friday, November 27, 2009

It's a Mystery


Sometimes I think my blog should be called something like "All the Gory Details" or "A life to make you grateful for yours" or something like that. It's the outside in thing. I have stopped hoping for people outside my world to understand. Those that will, will, and those that won't never will no matter what I write or what they see in pictures. How's that for a cynical view of prejudice? It's true of my students as well. Some are there in the Master's program to learn, some are there just to get a degree. I have trouble with the latter since I love my profession and take a personal approach to teaching such that I still care if they get it or not. That hasn't been driven out of me yet...this is turning into a cynical post and I digress.

What this post is really about -back to the gory details part- is the last few months and the conclusions we have come to. Ellie has been having a very hard time on a few fronts since August. 2009 has been the year to get off meds. Lots of calculated risks and believing in my understanding of my Ellie versus what the medical community has to say. Since January she is off: Cisipride for Reflux, Depakote for Seizures, Protonix for Reflux, and mostly off her Zantac. That's a lot of change.

Since August she has not been sleeping well as you may have heard. We thought it was her brain adjusting off the Depakote- and so it may have been initially. Then when we had the mishap with pharmacy we pulled the protonix - which is a proton pump inhibitor. Then we realized that she was growing out of her g-tube and the bad pool water at her school and possibly some sand from all the beach going in the summer just made it worse. We tried two different sizes of G-tube and nothing worked. Then she started to have these episodes - one in August, two in September, two in October and then a week later in November where she would vomit and then not want to eat and not hold much down and be very sensitive to light and sound and irritable and exhausted. She has missed more school because of this than not. The whole episode would last for 4 days. The last day and a half where she would be doing better but just exhausted from the first two and a half days.

She missed a lot of school. I missed a lot of work. The world keeps moving forward at the most unforgiving pace.

She also turned 7. I need to do her annual montage but that will have to wait until I catch up a little more and until she gets on track.

The day after her birthday on November 10, she vomited, was exhausted, would want to play with her musical toy but the minute she held it would push it away and bury her face in my chest. Holding her didn't help. She didn't want to eat - but unlike a stomach virus - was able to hold down small volumes of rich food- avocado and coconut kefir to be exact. She would vomit up anything else. So the tummy bug / back to school virus was not holding water any more.

Then on Tuesday night she was up all night - screaming. Why we didn't bring her to the hospital at 2am when the worst of it was going on I have no idea. We did check her eyes and they dilated fine and evenly. She wasn't vomiting. She was just in pain. At 8am I brought her to her pediatrician. We realized that this was not a situation we could handle at home anymore. It wasn't some sort of repeated virus and it wasn't her g-tube - which was still in rag order because her stoma for the first time in six years was not healing as it should. But this was something else.

The pediatrician looked in her ears, eyes, throat (making her vomit) and looked concerned when I reported Ellie's weight loss which was roughly 5 pounds since August from so many weeks of these episodes. She had, had a little roll around the waist and some meat on her arms but now she was very thin.

Upon discerning that there was no ear, throat infection, no swollen glands no rashes and all the usual suspects he sent us across the street to Children's ER. In the ER they put in an IV (God bless all Nurses who are good at IV's on an ex-preemie's veins) did a shunt series and a head CT. They are very efficient there and got Ellie in a small dark room right away which was good considering she was still in a lot of pain. I chose not to giver her Tylenol (which I had been giving her when she was having these episodes) because I didn't want to mask any symptoms - because at this point we thought it was her shunt.

They gave her Zofran for nausea and this allowed her to sleep. We saw the neurology team, the neuro surgery team, the pediatric attending. The scans came back showing nothing. Theories were thrown around. The attending pediatrician said Migraines. I called Dave who was at work and asked him to search migraines. He did and found many, many reports of people who were long time users of proton pump inhibitors (prilosec and protonix) developing migraines either after quitting the drug or if they were over 3 hours late in taking their dose.

The problem was that because of Ellie's history and complex shunt system, no one wanted to believe the migraine diagnosis. The young Neurology resident was annoyed at the Neuro Surgery team for writing Ellie off so quickly, he was sure it was intercranial pressure.

They admitted her Wednesday night after 10 hours in the ER. I said I did not want to take her home with all of this going on. It was beyond our ability to help her because we were trying all the things we usually did and she was in pain and not eating and the weight loss had to stop.

They were reluctant to feed her if she was facing a brain surgery, so they kept her on IV fluids with some sugars in them and electrolytes. Dave and I took turns staying with her. She was there to be observed, hydrated, and tested. All her blood tests came back normal. White blood cell count was normal and not elevated which ruled out infection. They did a 24 hour EEG that came back normal - which was excellent because it ruled subliminal seizures. The nutritionist took away my print out of Ellie's diet with all the proportions and exactly what Ellie is given each day and gave it a full analysis. The very cool news is that Ellie, when she isn't sick, is getting 1,700 calories a day, enough fat, vitamins, and protein. Go figure and not any synthetic formula doing any of that. I have to say nutrition has come a long way since we first went to them at Children's in 2003. Then they thought we were nuts to go on whole foods. They had us try every formula in the book and when those formulas made Ellie more sick they said we were administering them incorrectly. It was Linda Scotson who gave me the guts and the know how to transition Ellie on to whole foods.

But this time the nutritionist looked at Ellie's diet and didn't bat an eye. She knew what coconut kefir was, shared the same concerns about Hemp and did the research on that for me. She was awesome. She respected our values. AND she gave me a great resource I have on order about homemade blended formula. She had a few suggestions and then she put in writing her results such that I had medical proof I could give to Ellie's doctors to show them that I wasn't starving her of protein and nutrition because she wasn't on pediasure or meat. By the way turns out that Hemp milk is very low allergen and one of the most bioavailable proteins out there. I put Ellie on it to replace some of her rice milk and she is doing beautifully. It was easily the best experience I have ever had with a nutritionist. And it was very validating. Dave when I showed him her report said, "Oh thank god! That's a relief!" I think now he might actually believe I knew what I was doing...

Our hospital stint did garner these two good findings - the normal EEG and the blessing on Ellie's whole foods, food combined diet. But it still did not answer what the heck was causing Ellie so much pain.

It came down to two camps. The migraine camp and the sub-optimally working shunt camp. The test they wanted to do to prove it was the shunt periodically malfunctioning was to put Ellie on Diamox which would reduce her body's production of Cerebral Spinal Fluid, such that if she was having intercranial pressure her symptoms would stop. The doctors who wanted to do this said there were hardly any side effects to the Diamox, but if you Google it you will see that is wrong. AND what if it isn't her shunt? What if messing with the amount of precious CSF bathing and protecting her brain could make the shunt clog? It was so difficult to get Ellie's shunt system working to begin with (4 surgeries) that I was very leery of this. Dr. Lillianna Gumnerova, who is Ellie's neurosurgeon and an attending at Children's, came down and examined Ellie and looked at all her scans and was very clear that if it was Ellie's shunt her symptoms in between episodes would not totally abate. Malfunctioning shunts just get worse. Since this is where she lives, we were inclined to believe her. She was also the only doctor out of all the others who was able to get Ellie's CSF to drain properly to begin with so she looms large in our world.

The other path was to try a drug called Periactin for migraines. A friend and a mother of one of Ellie's school friends told me about it. Turns out that antihistomines are great for migraines and this one especially. Also, it's a really old drug - tried and tested and the side effects are minimal. Ellie's pediatrician was coming by a few times a day to check on Ellie, which is how concerned he was and he's awesome! He is the only doctor that crossed all the teams. And they listen to him there. He wanted to go the Diamox route and knowing him and trusting him as I do and respecting him too, I asked him about the Periactin and couldn't we give that a try first? It takes a week to kick in, which will be this Sunday. He agreed with the understanding that if she had any symptoms - vomiting or the massive fatigue that we were to bring her straight in. This was the plan when we left on Friday night. So instead of driving to Virginia for Thanksgiving with my family we stayed put. My same friend who recommended the Periactin also invited us over for the holiday and it turns out she could give Martha Stewart and any Iron Chef a run for their money. Definitely one of the best Thanksgiving Day meals ever!

Ellie has seemed a little tired which is one of the two side effects they said she would have. The other is greater appetite. She has both. From Saturday till Wednesday Ellie slept better than she has in months. She is keeping all her food down. She was up Thursday at 4am because she was hungry so I gladly fed her. And she has been playing like there is no tomorrow. It's like she has to catch up. She wanted to sit in her princess couch and play with every toy she owns. She is not quite back to herself yet. She still is slightly irritable and the overhead lights bother her a lot. This Sunday it will be one week so we will see if the symptoms abate with the Periactin at its full effect. If that does not work we will either try the Diamox which still worries me or I will push for an MRI. That's invasive for sure because they have to give her anesthesia and intubate but much less invasive than exploratory shunt surgery and might weigh equally with the Diamox trial...maybe - putting a kid under is hugely hard on the body...ugh. I hate these choices we have to make. In the mean time I am working to feed Ellie as much as she can take. Her little feet even lost weight such that her AFO's are too big and she went down a diaper size. It was a year's worth of weight gain and all the moms of preemies out there know what a bummer that is.

That is how it's all going these days. We are feeding her, watching her, staying close to home and hoping for migraines. How crazy is that? Wishing that it was a migraine.... This whole experience is about picking the lesser of two evils. If it is migraines then hopefully in a few months they will abate if they are from the protonix withdrawal though migraines do run on my side of the family. And for the doctor that said that migraines don't last as long as 48-72 hours - you are so wrong.

All of the above is why I think I may change Ryn Tales to "All the Gory Details" (you never wanted to know).

At the end of the day I am very thankful that Ellie is here and that for now it looks like her shunt may be ok. At least we have a game plan or two and thank god for the wonderful medical community that does disagree in a healthy way and especially thank god for all those doctors that do listen to parents (nutritionists too). Ellie is better because of all of them. I am grateful too for my friend Holly who is so smart and gives me verbal and moral ammunition when I am out to push back when I need to, because it seems like I need to a lot sometimes, much more than I would prefer.

Ellie turned 7 this November 9th. She it still learning and growing and developing and the sweetest little girl. I am thankful I get to be her Mama.

7 comments:

Kristin said...

Your "tale" is one of beauty and of pain but keep on plugging! I know thought the plot is now thick it will thin into a wonderful future! Tell Ellie I said ,"Hi" (even though I know she is mad at me for disappearing without explaination).

Kathryn said...

Hi Kristin, I will tell her. We all miss you!! I hope you love your new job. We still have to hang out when things settle down a bit!

Katy said...

My hubby suffers migraines and they sound VERY similar to what you're describing. I also had a student that suffered from them and it was the same deal. Lethargy, light sensitivity, and vomit. I do hope your chosen medication clears this up completely.

Eithne said...

Hi Kathryn, I'm always amazed by your knowledge and strength and your posts are so beautiful. I just clicked back and read the Outside In post again, lovely. I can relate so much to that. I totally agree about hemp too - my son Luca has so many allergies this is the one thing that has never caused a problem and is a great source of nutrition for him. Hope Ellie recovers quickly and kudos to you for all you have achieved this year.

Best wishes
Eithne

Billie said...

Whew. Sounds like a lot to deal with...but Ellie is beautiful and from my viewpoint it appears you are doing a spectacular job as her mama.

We tried Periactin for a while with Eden (as an appetite stimulant), and didn't have a good experience. It made her sooooo tired and her tone became extremely floppy...which actually led to more vomiting. It definitely worked to increase her appetite, but the balance wasn't there with the other side effects so we ended up going off and vowing not to try it again.

I know other people who have tried Periactin with fewer negatives, and who have been happy with it, but I thought I'd share our experience!

Good luck. I really hope you find a solution soon so that Ellie is comfortable and thriving.
Billie

Barbara said...

Those outsiders don't know what they are missing by not including people into their worlds (mindsets). Your readers, however, are most appreciative of the gory details and your ability to teach through the blog.

So happy to read that Ellie is better and wishing a much less gory 2010.

medrecgal said...

This post just about broke my heart, because I know all about the awfulness of migraines and wouldn't wish them on anybody. (Especially not a cute 7 year old girl!) The description in your post of the related symptoms does sound a lot like some of the more extreme migraines I've had; given my history (which includes a tangle with shunted hydrocephalus), they've landed me in the hospital on occasion and made more than one doc nervous. Here's to hoping that they found a workable, consistent solution for her.

And as for that doctor's "they don't last 48-72 hours" theory, my experience has also proven him (or her) completely wrong. I've had them at times for a week or more. Let's hope that never happens to Ellie. And unfortunately for all the progress they've made, there are still some occasions when it seems nothing short of being almost knocked out by meds will help a migraine. Keep those "gory details" coming. Here's wishing for good news and progress in 2010, and I'd be the first to agree that sometimes a mama does need to push back when the medical community doesn't listen. That's about the only reason I'm alive to write!